Radom thoughts from a frazzled mom!

summer vacation is almost over and with that comes a small piece of a mothers sanity. It was taken at the beginning of summer when the kids when at each others throats leaving mom in the middle. When this happens there can be only 2 out comes. 1: mom raises herself up to her full height in a effort to scare the children where her sheer size and  ora will have them cowering in their bedrooms, or 2 mom roars like a lion and scares the crap out of the kids and the crying starts. Either way it goes down the kiddos will end up scared out of their minds and mom will regret both of the choices because she now has to calm down the kids which just pissed her off. All of this thinking started me to thinking how do you come out the other end of summer vacation with your sanity still intact. For the life of me i still don't how i come out of it with some for of sanity left. One minute everything is quite and they are playing nicely together and the next they are calling each other stupid or saying something like "I hate you!" right before the ever so popular door slam. We all remember do these horrible things to our brothers or even our moms and dads. I never new how much it hurt to hear my own kid say " I hate you mom!" but on the other hand there is the times when they truly surprise with me how much they care. Yesterday my 3 1/2 year said to me while we were outside on the trampoline playing "Mommy you are my honey. Love you." My heart was so full to here my only son tell me i was his honey. It made me forget all the horrible times this summer when we couldn't stand to be around each other, I was so full of love for not only him but for his sisters too. It showed me just how loved as a mom i really am as all mothers are. They may say then hate me but at the end of the day every night i am told "I love you mommy!" and this softens the blow from everything else that happened that day. The small things seem to help me get through the summer, the days spent relaxing at the beach and making memories because that is what they will remember when they are all grown up. We only have so many summers with them and i try to make the most of it, even tho some days are a total write off but we still keep going. My spir