Where have I been?

 Wow...where have i been. I couldn't even tell you, i feel like i have been everywhere and no where all at once. So many things have happened, but i am still searching for the right words. My mind so foggy that i don't know where to start or even how to. 

    Back in 2020 when everyone was sent home to do nothing, they seem to have started to do everything. People found new hobbies, and got new pets, stopped dating, and started online dating. People made friends on the other side of the plant, but never got out of their pyjamas. Getting out of one's PJ's is over rated anyway, as are pants...I am getting off topic. We all realized what everyone means to us. We found out how important it is to have social interaction. I don't know about you, but at some point I started to grieve for the life we lost. Everything we where use to went out the door. Suddenly the door was firmly closed and the window wouldn't open either. I felt trapped in a totally new way, then found myself freer than others. Is freer a word? I don't know! We aren't here for good grammer...are we? Living on a farm afforded me the ability to send my kids outside either way. There was no worry of other people around. We found our selves outside playing in the snow, skating on the creek, and making snow forts. Then everything seemed to slowly get better, but everyone had an opinion of whether it was to slow or not.  Kids went back to school and mom got her sanity back. 

                                                                                                                                                                   2021, We bought a horse. We got scammed on a horse no less than twice, In a row! The second time was a real whopper. I will go into detail on another blog. The long and short of it is we just don't have enough knowledge and experience to know better. Our kids started 4-H, they work with and train steers to go in the show ring. Yes they earn money at the end by selling their steer. They become that very expensive steak you love! They learn so much. 

And me? I took up photography. I think I do pretty good, for an ammeter. I found books on audible, that is how i escaped into another world to maintain my sanity.  I lost weight, i started at 217 lbs and am now down to the 185 lbs mark. Then something happened I never expected. I was diagnosed with rheumatoid arthritis. I still don't know what to think about it, or even how to live with it yet. Some days I forget that I even have it, others it's the only thing that I can think about. The new drugs that I now have to take daily and weekly, they make me feel so bad that sometimes they steel hours away from me. All I can do is keep trying, doing what I can so Istill feel some type of control. 

I seem to have spilled all my short little bursts of thoughts out on the page. My mind seems a little less foggy and scattered. I hope you are all well. Until next time. 

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