OUt of Ideas!

I hate to admit it but lately i have had very little ideas for this blog. I find myself thinking that everything interesting has already been done. It's hard to come up with a  original idea when almost everything i like has someone doing what i would like to do. When i started this blog i had some ideas i just had to get out. Most of which where about parenting, since then i have found that i have nothing else to talk about. My days seem to bleed into each other with the routines of my kids taking away any other thought of something i might like to do. My brain has nothing new to say, my kids do the same shit every day and it gets hard to put a funny or positive spin on things. All my energy has gone into trying not to have a melt down. So days i just can't handle my kids and all i want to do is hide in the bathroom with candy and chips and eat until it's all gone so i don't have to share. I said bathroom because that is the only door in our house that i can lock so they can't get to me. I haven't really had anything inspirational happen to me in months. Motherhood seems to have taken over completely. I keep scrolling on YouTube hoping to find something new, or different but it's about the same things. I could start vlogging but it would be boring, the same things happen everyday at almost the same time. Everyone has done things that i wanted to do already and what is the point of trying to start doing things that have already been done? Why do i find it so hard to even have a creative idea?? You scroll for everything now a days, Pinterest is the place where you find ideas right? okay well then why does it all seem the same?? why are all the hair posts the same? why are the backgrounds you find for your phone the same general thing? For every kids birthday you do the same thing? Cake some type of party and more cake, and they play and have fun while we the adults clean up everything and wipe the frosting off the floor?? We do everything for our kids and yet what do we do for ourselves? I tend to forget about myself my kids are better dressed than me now, my jeans from the sale rack because after i get them dressed i get the what is left. All my shirts are stained and i forget when i eat last. Get the kids to bed only remember they have home work that never got done because i forgot, so who ends up doing it?? MOM!

At some point along the way i forgot about myself, and thought it was okay. It isn't okay is it? When i i forget about myself i find i am not happy with myself. I have nothing to wear, or i realize i haven't showered in 2 days and smell bad. Because of what we do to make a living this is my life, getting self time is hard and having time alone with my husband is even harder. We forget what brought us together and then forget why we are even here. There are other days when it has been a good day and it ends with all kids in bed and clean, both mom and dad are clean and even have time to cuddle or just in general have a good talk. The end of those day brings into focus why i do what i do. I might be short on time, maybe homework isn't done on time but i have a great family and great husband. What else could you ask for?