ReDiscovering ME! (NOT as mom)

Lately I have been having a lot of time to do some thinking, about myself and what I like. I have come to a cross roads in my life where my kids are all in school 1 a bit less than others. I find myself with time to think about what i like, and what i think i should look like. I started having kids the age of 20 that is very young i know but now being 30 i am thankful for this. I am thankful because i know i have so much of my life left to live with so many possibilities. I have 3 kids and am 30. I could go back to school and learn a new trade, i could save up and travel because they are old enough now that i can safely leave them with someone i trust.

No beauty gate on this picture!

Mostly now tho i have been doing things that i wanted to do when i was a teenager or young adult, that i didn't get the chance or maybe the time to do. The most recent thing i have done is get my nose pierced! So many of my family are wondering "why do you suddenly want to get your nose pierced??" Well i can tell you it's not a new thing, i have been wanting to get it done since i left high school! I also got my second lob piercings redone and a helix piercing as well. I have cut my hair off and coloured it auburn with 2 streaks of purple in it as well. I have had new tattoo's done and want another one of a Tardis. What i have noticed most is that people around me seem to think all this is a new thing. It's a lot of things that got pushed to the back burner because i had kids so young. I am rediscovering what it means to be me. I have learned that i am not a typical mom. I like to have colour in my hair no matter the age, and i am not afraid to help my kids let there inner self shine through. I like piercings, it's not that i am a gluten for pain or punishment, but i feel they are my jewellery. Many lady's like to wear rings or a lot of necklaces ,i like to where earrings. I have tattoo's not a lot but a few and a couple of them you can see on any given day. Some people don't like them, some people don't like them at all I do! I have found that i feel not like myself when i try to fit in with all the clicks and "normal" moms. I fit in with the people that are not afraid to say what they think and be totally okay with showing how they feel on the inside on the outside.  I am the black sheep of my family and i know that, but the key to all this is knowing that and owning that shit! The day i decided that i am okay with this, is the day i began to live! I suddenly didn't care what others thought or that i am very different from most people, i started rocking that and suddenly i started getting compliments on my glasses, or what i was wearing, or even my hair! I discovered that when i am truly happy with my self on both the inside and the outside, is the day that everyone else just might decide they like me
because i like myself!

Own what ever you are! coloured hair or natural, many piercings or none, tattoo's or not? It's all okay as long it's a genuine YOU!