ReLearning the Art of Adulting

ReLearning the art of Adulting after having kids is proving difficult. 

When I had my first baby I had no idea what I was getting myself into. The diaper changes, the laundry, and biggest of all the lack of sleep. I was educated on breast is best and nothing else.  When my second daughter came along i was much more prepared, and my last baby well I knew what I was doing and it all went rather well. What I wasn't prepared for, after my first baby was how trapped i felt. I felt like i couldn't leave the house or that I couldn't go anywhere without help. I took me a few months before I realized I could do it all by myself. Getting confidence as a parent was hard for me. I was always asking myself if I was doing it right, or if I was some how hurting my daughter. I now have to relearn what it means to be a adult, free of my kids.    

Now they are 8, 6, and 2 year old. I am finally finding out that I am getting some freedom back. Gone are the days when they had to stay with me because I was the food or they would only eat for me. I am so close to being done with diapers in general. My husband is finally able to take all 3 by himself because they are old enough for him to handle them. I finally just recently got a day at home without my husband or kids. A entire day to myself to do what ever I wanted. 

About a week ago my husband came to me and said "I think I should take the kids to the Fun factory." I was so dumb founded that I didn't know what to say. To be cleaner its a big in door play area for all ages of kids. So I said "sure ya go ahead, but i might just hang back." To my surprise he said "okay sure." So last week end, off they went to have a fun day while mom stayed home. I must admit that when they were getting ready to leave I felt like I was getting left behind. I wanted to go, but I was also sick and coughing. After more thought I stayed home. I have never not gone where my kids where going. At first after they left i was kinda scared to be by myself.   Then all the things that I wanted to do popped into my head, off I went to get my stuff done. It wasn't cleaning things, but things I couldn't do while the kids run in and out of my bedroom. Coloured my hair, my eye brows, eat pizza, and chips and didn't have to share! 

I had forgotten what it was like to have a entire house to myself. To be able to do what I want, to eat what I want without sharing. To watch TV that isn't cartoons, to walk around with no pants on! It was fantastic. Feeling like a adult again was very empowering, and really did recharge this mommy. Felt so good to just be myself again with out being mommy! 

P.S. Once you have time away you will only want more.....More Please!